Blessed, I Think So

Just popping in to unload all my thoughts. Life has been a whirlwind lately. So much has happened in the past few months. We celebrated the birth of Madelynn, we are moving soon, we got horses, we left Mormonism. Life has really changed rapidly in a short while. We have been attending a Calvary Chapel. For a short bit, I felt I had completely turned my back on our father in Heaven. I was angry, bitter and tired, but he always has a way of bringing us back to him and coincidentally it was through my kids. They love church and beg to go. We are happy there, have lots of friends there and the summer bbq and concerts on Tuesday nights are a blast. Nate's work shift has changed to days which is a huge blessing. Nights had their perks, but I appreciate day shift. Homeschooling is going wonderful. Kayla is multiplying, dividing and reading super well, blogging and typing and just really coming into her own with knitting and her sense of style at the ripe age of 8:) Wyatt is really coming along with his math facts and is reading wonderfully well. He reads with so much expression it just blows me away because it took me a long time to figure out how to do that as a child. Everett is brilliant, the kid writes nicer than myself and is as smart as a whip with math. Homeschooling can be so overwhelming at times, but in the end it is very worthwhile. My life feels so complete and perfect right now. I love my horses so much and riding has been such a great outlet for me and the kids just love their pony. I am actually going tomorrow to look at a really nice Barrel horse and I will hopefully be bringing her home as long as she is what they say she is. Nate and I have been trail riding once a week together too which is so good for our relationship. My mom has been awesome enough to babysit 6 kids weekly....God love her! Overall our lives are so rich and tremendously blessed. I love being freed from the confines of Mormonism, wearing shorts in the heat of the summer, having a glass of wine here and there and just being free to be me, a child of God who is saved by faith and grace, not works. What an amazing feeling it is. I am also happy to report I have plateaued at a nice weight for me. I am guessing I plateaued because this is my natural or healthy weight of 125 lbs. While I was hoping for 120, I am not fretting. I feel beautiful because my body has birthed 6 children thus far and its done amazing things nursing for a total of about 7.5 years so far and still going. 22 months of those have been continuous as I continue to nurse Kenna along with Madelynn. Kenna is so healthy and loves to cuddle and nurse about 4-6X a day still. She has been sick with a cold this past week and her nursing has increased, but I am okay with it and so glad my body is able to carry the large load I ask of it from working out, to feeding 3 bodies to riding horses to cooking and cleaning. Its amazing how much I am able to do. Praise God for good health! We are trusting God as our ultimate family planner and at times that is scary, but also exciting to see who else might join our family. It feels perfect now, but only He knows how many more faces will round out the already 3 boy/3 girl balance of blessings we currently have. All I do know is that we live our lives to the fullest and it couldn't get much better.