Friday, April 29, 2011

Words Haven't Been Coming Easily

There's been a lot of stress. I'm not handling it well. I admit it. Moving again(3rd time in 3 years) is almost too overwhelming to think about. I am thrilled to move to our hometown again, yet the work involved and the logisitics of moving with 7 children, 3 horses, 2 dogs and a cat is not a picnic. I've literally worked myself up to the point of having full blown, nasty, panic attacks. I have struggled with anxiety on and off in my teen and adult years. My entire family battles this annoying problem and usually positive self-talk will do the trick but these attacks have been worse than anything I have ever experienced. I mean.....heart thumping, body parts going numb, profuse sweating, complete paranoia, insomnia etc. I have also completely stopped trying to lose weight months ago when I reached my goal weight of 125, WELL I AM NOW 114(way toooooooo bony/skinny) this is what I weighed in highschool. I cannot beleive I weigh this small of an amount as a mother of 7 who eats a lot and I am 5' 5".

I finally caved and went to see my Dr assuming I am under stress and this is just panic, I was admitting defeat and hoping for a medicine I could take just on the ocassion of a bad attack. What I found out instead is my TSH is almost undetectable. I am extremely hyperthyroid so that is why I have had such severe panic/weight loss and then add the stress of moving in there and its been a recipe for disaster. I am asking for prayers for peace and healing of my thyroid. I do not want to do anything radical medically. I just am praying fervently that it will right itself in a short time as I had this issue after my 3rd child as well and it just corrected itself on its own. Panic attacks are not fun and that is certain. I am just trying to medititate, pray and relax as much as possible as I beleive our mind-body connection is strong and I am guessing the stress through my body for a loop so I am working on destressing. Prayers are greatly appreciated though as I beleive strongly in the power of prayer. Thank you in advance.

11 comments:

Jeanne said...

Janis, my thoughts and prayers are with you! Moving is no fun, and I can see how moving everyone you do can make you stressed out! It's not a fix all, but make sure you take some "me" time for yourself to just relax a bit.

Good luck!

Cherie said...

OMGosh...did you feel the rush of the spirit come over you cuz I just prayed really good for you. Having just gone through this, my heart went out to you quickly. It is so hard when all this stuff is going on inside of you and no one can see it accept yourself. It brings you to a place of feeling nutty. You have my prayers. You will be fine I know, but still prayers and talking are really the finally cure. Much love to you and your family.

lilpeasinmypodfromgod said...

Cherie and Jeanne thank you so much!!

Tufford Family said...

Janis
praying for you...I know how being overwhelmed feels...Evening primrose oil helps with female hormones...hth
Blessings, Heidi

lilpeasinmypodfromgod said...

Heidi I have some here actually, can I take it while nursing?

Tufford Family said...

janis
Yes, you can take it while nursing ( I am)...I recently had a miscarriage and was dealing with hormonal imbalance, having panic attacks...my midwife (also dr) told me to take evening primrose oil (1000 mg a day), b complex, and herbs...I can't tell you the herbs because its in a formula she makes up but all I know it helped tremenously...I am sure if you google 'herbs that help anxiety' you can find what helps...
I hope you start feeling better soon..blessings, Heidi

FandCmom said...

Oh no! I know what you sare feeling as I suffered PA as well. Did they give you medicene for the thyroid? I doo got to 117 at 5'6'' it was not a good look....

Ana

Mrs. Wilson said...

I hope you get better soon. 117 is not much at all for someone your height seven children or not. Maybe you can relax when the move is over?

chevyray said...

Janis i am always here for you when you need a shoulder to cry on.. or a hand to hold when you feel all alone.Im door is always open 24 hours a day 7 days a week dont forget it! <3

lilpeasinmypodfromgod said...

Brittany I know it and I feel bad for knocking it down so much lately lololol!! :0)

Miranda said...

I want to share with you 2 posts from my blog. I am 30 with 7 children and I was also diagnosed with thyroid disease but I completely turned to the Lord and have recieved complete healing. Thyroid disease is realated to Father/Daughter issues....

http://fruitfulabundance.blogspot.ca/

http://fruitfulabundance.blogspot.ca/2012/06/daddy.html