Saturday, October 2, 2010
I am hangin in there! The weather cooling has slowed contractions and made me much more comfortable. I am enjoying all the rain and thunderstorms so much. I've been passing time baking, cooking, cleaning, and coming up with creative things to do so time will literally fly:) I am sooooo ready to meet my lil man, but I am glad he is staying put thus far.....each day we are a little closer and he is that much more developed and ready for the outside world. I will tell you one thing in this world that would make me a million times more uncomfortable than I am at the moment and that would be leaving my baby in a NICU so I think of that as each day passes and he is inside me. I am greatful to God for allowing me to keep carrying Jesse even with all discomforts there are to be had and the fact that I am dilating and effacing early because I know he is safe and he is WITH me, his mommy who loves him more than anyone in this world ever could. I know there will still be a chance for NICU time with him being born at 35 weeks and 3 days, but I pray daily for God to hasten his development and for him to be able to come home right away. My last 2 were perfectly healthy at 35 weeks and 5 days with one receiving steroids and one not, but they were girls so I am really hoping my son is as much a fighter as his big sisters. Deep down I am at peace that he will be. I feel confident knowing he had steroids and knowing God is in control and will see his delivery through.