For anyone who doesnt know about it, its seriously what sustains me during rough days. http://boards.babycenter.com/n/pfx/forum.aspx?webtag=bcus5712 I love the girls there. In fact I have been a member there for 4 years. I have been a lurker on the babycenter LDS board http://boards.babycenter.com/n/pfx/forum.aspx?webtag=bcus11962 for about 1.5 years and recently began posting there a ton. The girls there are sooooo neat. For a non LDS person, you will be completely turned on to the gospel by these super women!! I had a good friend on Large Families board today who reminded me in my state of current religious confusion how happy I seem lately and it reminded me that I have been and has to have been because of the LDS church, its the only thing I have done differently lately. I started going mid december. It feeds my spirit like nothing else ever has. I need to remember that and talk a ton with Nate about it and come to a decision.